between strength in an empty space

i'm not much in the mood of talking, or even typing to my blog lately.. sorry to all my blog readers.. hope i'll get back on my mood soon enough... thanks for your support.. appreciate it much :D

idc...

sabar...

gentle reminder to myself, and maybe you too

gentle reminder to myself...

"kau bukan nya perfect sangat nak comment orang.. before nak criticize orang lain cuba cermin dulu diri kau, ada tak kekurangan tu.."

ni gentle reminder to myself.. kalau anda rasa anda juga macam saya.. leave a comment and sama-sama kita muhasabah diri.. atau anda perasan hebat sedikit, lepas baca ni boleh blah dari blog ini.. ok??? THANK YOU :D

p/s: lepas bace blog aion serious aku macam nak tampar mamat 'auww!' yang mengomen dia tu.. tapi since aku tak kenal dia.. bulan puasa lagi tu.. so aku taknak buat dosa.. syadap je la kan?

p/ss: ada baca beberapa blog.. banyak juga yang criticize je kerja diorang.. (cehh macam kau tak buat kan ainil?) this is a personal blog.. this is MY blog.. aku buat blog bukan nak dapat kan 'benefit', pasang nuffnang la pebende (jangan terasa my munchkins and darlings! tak tuju kat korang), index kat google and what-so-ever.. this is my thoughts.. what i feel.. kalau tak nak baca, rasa layout aku tak lawa cam layout korang ke, music box aku annoying ke, tak cukup itu dan ini ke, jangan la tekan ok!!! ngeee~~~ (ini tanda cik ainil geram) heeee!

al-fatihah kepada nendaku

she have left us..

now i totally understands what it feels like when you are away from home, and tak dapat balik untuk menziarahi..

i got 2 test coming up and 1 quiz

materials tech : tajuk intro to atom, crystalline structure, ferrous and non ferrous metal and polymer (thermoplastics, thermosets and elastomer)

hubungan etnik : bab 1 -4

electric and electronics : alternating current sahaja

plus ada assignments nak kena present lagi..

picture taken from a day before nenek passed away.. for photography class, using d80, low speed.

ME : now and then

DULU

me (jovial + bubbly)

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not doing homework / playing around

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denda dengan cikgu

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still can score so-so

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happy :)

NOW

assignments

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extra-curricular activities

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after class programs

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late nights group/club meetings

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struggling to score

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panda eyes (not cute)

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fatigue!

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not happy

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grumpy!!

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dean list???

so is it a good thing or a bad thing?? which is which??

ainil si pembebel 'selfish'

i feel that im selfish sometimes.. ya Allah, kesiannya dekat orang lain..

like.... i talk alot..

nagging, blabbing, complaining, etc..

kadang-kadang kesian dekat orang yang mendengar.. walaupun most of the time si pendengar akan kata "i don't mind..", "best jugak dengar orang lain bercerita.." tapi seriously bila conversation dah habis, i was thinking, eh asyik aku je yang cakap kan??? betul la kan??

(kau memang banyak cakap and banyak complains, ainil!!)

so next time, your turn to cakap banyak-banyak taw? heee!!! ^-^

i'm not anorexic but why???

i eat alot.. okay, 'used' to eat alot....

i lose another kilogram this week..

i was 48kg 2 months ago...

3 weeks ago i was 46.5kg..

last week 44kg..

now im 43kg.. someone, help me!!!!!!