saya kata MAJOR stress

As you seeeeeeeeeeeee.. aku asyik cerita benda-benda stress.. YES, without any doubt, im in MAJOR stress!!! i mean MAJOR MAJOR STRESSS!!!!!!

only this time i wish i can chillax tepi pantai, snorkelling with the fishes and sea creatures ke or wutt.. or maybe a week in europe *eceh macam aku kaye je*


sekarang duk rumah pun kerja tak habis lagi.. ingat duk rumah boleh laa goyang kaki.. end up surat rayuan pulak kena type, and kena spread the words, dari pihak atasan yang tak berapa nak atas.. ke rakan SATU FAKULTI.. yey *straight face* :|

serabut tak serabut la kan lagi-lagi satu fakulti kena duk lua pulak dengan sem depan ade major project for transport.. tak kan nak balik bengkel tido dalam khemah tepi studio kan???

what ever la.. just hope for the best... insyaAllah....

Astronaut @ Fashion Muse??

tadi tu angan-angan.. sekarang ni impian pulak... haah ni sebenarnya padle yang tag aku.. orang dah tag, kene la buat kan.. walaupun lambat BANYAK.. haha yang penting aku buat, kan kan kan???

first impian aku yang tak mungkin tercapai

my childhood dream as an astronaut..

haha harapan la aku nak jadi kan.. baru lari setengah padang dah semput.. nak tempuh force of 9G?? mau kempis la paru-paru aku, memang 30 botol inhaler pun lom cukup aku rasa... well point kat sini nak cakap aku ni tak la fit mane.. childhood bronchitis and asthma REALLY kacau impian ni.. tapi takpe la kot.. aku selesa jadi designer.. hehe!

no #2
becoming a fashion muse for foreign designer or damn-kaya-gila socialite in the US..

like, why USA??
well, kat sane the fashion influences are very strong, the whole scene was full extravagant and yes.. they have very deep deep pockets to be practically there.. *unless ko dihantar study sana by gomen laa* senang kata i wish im rich gilerr la.. pegi event naek private jets and duduk front seat kat every fashion shows!! well actually milan, paris, hong kong pun sama je but USA have every strongest reason untuk menjadi tumpuan fesyen sedunia.. to have either rich, famous, fashionable or successful to be there.. kira-kira kena strive jugak la to just, be there..



being a fashion muse to a designer?? TING TING!! bonus!!! take jen brill for example, bukan dia famous gilerrr macam si gegeh nyanyi lagu telefon tu kan but she is successful, pretty and fashionable!! perfect fashion muse type!! the whole main point is i wanted to sit in the front row of new york fashion show!! yes!!! tapi of course, baju aku pun beli bundle je, nak fashionable ke hape??????

nak tag sape-sape jela yang dah bace ni.. patot korang kena tag 5 ORANG!! tapi aku malas hehe.. terbuka sape-sape yang rela.. tiada unsur serta paksa disini.. :D

BUSY macam LAME EXCUSE

i know busy is like a lameSSTTT excuse.. tapi memang ye pun.. take it or leave la kan.. but somehow i hate this semester.. i got the biggest feeling that next year macam tak naik je stage anugerah dekan.. dan ini SERIOUS

ANIMATION AND MULTIMEDIA DESIGN - CRASHED FILES
CATIA - PLAINLY SUCKKKKKKK
IDE ASSESSMENT - THE WORSTTTTTTTTTTTTTT NIGHTMARE
MANUFACTURING PROCESSING - alhamdulillah aku rase ni je yang survived!!!

animation tu.. tinggal nak render dah kot.. material, environment, camera, lighting and what so ever dah setel dah.. TAPI BLE NAK RENDER... BAMMMMM!! CRASH!! dan kul 5 pagi tu la aku merempit sorang-sorang pergi studio bawak laptop.. 5 PAGI BEBBBBBB... gilerr kauuuu.....

lecturer pulak dah bagi banyak dah masa for us.. agak begging to extend a day.. pasal if u use 'mental ray' "this thang is for material, maca nampak lagi real gitu la..." i took longer time to render than usual.. oh yes we use 3DSTUDIO MAX LIKE SHIT-JE-KALAU-HANG-THEN-KENA-RESTART-TADE-AUTOSAVE-LALU-HILANG-SEMUA-TETTTTTT.. bayangkan la perasaan itu..

CATIA tak yah cakap la.. dengan ilmu tak berapa nak cukup didada nak buat 3d model gempak-gempak... aku hentam jela.. malas dah nak pikir weyh...

ASSESSMENT! *ummm kalau cik baca, jangan mara-mara la pulak saya ye hehe* memang i was kindda unprepared.. i dont know what to expect actually.. dari benda terpenting like ergonomics and manufacturing processing of your product sampaiiiiiiiiiiiiii benda remeh temeh like the colour of your baju and stickers yg ko tepek dengan niat konon nye menambah keayuan sejati si model.... HAHHHHHHHHHHHHH... very tiring.. benda semua tu nak kena pikir ye sebelum design.. bukan main conteng lepas campak atas meja engineer... tidakk... tidakk... sangat pening kot.. i should fit in to the situation starting dari sekarang...

whatever... terlalu penat nak pikir sekarang ni.. marathon tak tido nyenyak 3 minggu makes my mind when frozen... dah i need rest kejap... tak tahan...

itu menatam..

hari ni aku bgun lewat bohh.. 2ptg!! ngaaaa...gilerrrrrrrrrrrrr tul anak dara ni.. then pas mandi yadaaa2 dgn tak makan pada kul 3, straight aku gi bengkel.. bertukang sampai kul 11.. penat weyhhh penat... berhenti pada kul 9 utk tapau roti sadin 2 keping.. makan maggi ayam cendawan aum aum ngan roti sadin kul 1.. dan paling best sekali, satu ream a3 and pokok kari dengan lada tomato yang aku beli semalam telah di 'shi-shi' oleh sekor pendatang asing berbulu dan berkaki empat.. 7KALI BROOOO AKU MOP LANTAI!!! bau dia... puhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... harum.. wekk aku tak lalu nak cakap, tekak da loya dah la tak nak cakap..

P/S: bella, kalau ko baca ni kan... sabar banyak-banyak taw.. Tuhan lebih sayang dia.. kita doa dia masuk syurga ok!

online narcisisst, are you??

well i somewhat read this in a local magazine.. asking "are you an online narcissist??" i was like,... "menatang ape tuuu???" i knew narcissist is something, someone, and almost like when a person is loving him/herself too much, terlalu self-concious, -absorbed.. senang cerita kau bangga diri la with what you have, done, said, own, achieved, and the list goes on and on.. then i thought, aku salah seorang daripada nya atau tak?? kan??

well, after a while of evaluation, i was, i mean WAS *stressing the past tense, darlings* narcissistic.. i mean c'mon.. maybe itu function nya does tweets and status updates, and yeahhh like this one.. BLOGGING.. soo when it gets too much, people gona get sick.. right??

so if you updated your status every other 5minutes with your crappy thoughts and irrelevant status, oh-mak-kau-aku-lagi-pemes like

"my results sucks/i crashed my dad's car/i'm grounded cuz i broke curfew/caught minum air ketum and feel like the end of the world.. mari terjun sg klang"
*unsur macam kau nak mati esok padahal lusa aku nampak kau makan aiskrim kat mid valley dengan awek*

atau

"aku nak gi jamban in another 5.78 secs kejap lagi.."
*unsur perlu-bkerr-bagitau?!*

atau

"OMG, OMG pakwe ai belikan ai sebijik ferrari!!" dan "harini bapak aku bg aku balik kampus naik private jet*
*unsur tayang harta*

atau

"hari ni i hangout dengan artis dot dot dot meletops yang masuk melodi tiap minggu tuuu.."
*unsur tumpang muka kat tivo AND gila-glamer*

atau

"aku ada latest phone/iphone/baju/kereta/kasut/designer goodies yang limited edition/special edition/bunker edition/anniversary mak-bapak aku edition.. EKAU HADOO???"
*unsur aku mamat-minah hap-tu-det*

well obviously im exagerating the words.. hyperbola??

even there's a statistics saying that Malaysians like to upload picture albums more than other countries dalam bola hijau-biru yang pusing-pusing atas paksinya.. haha.. ada tu just to show their everyday life, what they are currently doing..

contoh: tunjuk bakat macam amek photos ke.. mane taw rezeki kan.. tapi kalau termaktub dalam 5 perkara diatas.. ehemmm pikir la sendiri..

so it wasnt wrong to update your status, tweets and everything online.. cuz that is where your friends get to know what's current, what you were actually doing and everything.. but you will know when actually people starts to menyampah and everything on you.. time tu kita kena slowly take a step back and do everything in a lower pace..

budak baju belang-belang tu online narcissist terlampau

ottoke? = apa nak buat?

entah ye entah tak aku eja korea ni..

bila kita stress apa kita buat???

bunuh orang-orang?? bunuh kucem sebelah rumah??? NO NO NO...

KITA GI PANTAI sambil makan jagung cup!!!!!

ohh yess time ni stress lepas kena marah dengan pakcik kebun yg kitorang interview sebelum tu.. sampai hampir-hampir berlanggaran antara dua skuter!! citer selanjutnya?? japppppp.. bagi aku basuh baju dulu.. *padahal cuci washing machine 2 hengget*

soalan bimbo: fox dengan wolf tak sama kan??

aku TERAMAT LAH bored hari ini, malam ni.. im getting sick doing research for the past two weeks AND will have more research until 8 february.. seriously sickening.. so i go around my hostel, facebook to annoy people.. call me annoying but yes.. i find it fun doing it.. mengaku sebagai seorang yang annoying menambah-nambahkan lagi perisa masak..... ohh bukan,.. perasaan annoying yang menebal dalam jiwa raga ni.. OH! DRAMA QUEEN NYA!... *sigh*

maka selepas mengacau orang di facebook dan classmate saya syud di YM, aku pun pergi ke bilik diare untuk mengacau.. mula la proses mengacau ni... HAHAHAHAHA

mula nya aku kitorang bercerita pasal cerita gominam.. gambar atas nih.. ala citer you're beautiful, citer korea yang famous tu.. tak tengok?? sila google.

mula dialog mcam ni la.........

Aku @ A: aku tak leyh la nak buat muka park shin hye @gominam tu.. aku ta reti nyanyi dengan main keyboard...

Diare @ D: boleh je ko melalak..

A: tapi aku tade muke park shin hye.. omm.. aku buat muka megan fox la, nak??

D: bahahahahaha!!!!!

A : pahal ko gelak?? mane tau nanti aku jadi model klip video love the way you lie...... *muka sedih*

D: pahal ko menyimpang jauh ke megan fox?? kalau ko jadi aku orang first buka club anti-megan fox palsu!

A: ngaaaa!! jahat giler ko.. chup-chupp.. ko agak-agak si gumiho tu sedara megan fox tak??

gumiho musang berekor 9..

hahahahaha mula dah keluar soalan sengal...

D :mane aku tau gumiho tu sedare-mare dia ke idak..

A: omm.. ke dia sedara dengan jacob citer twillight tu ek?? jap, fox dengan wolf same ke?? kerabat-kerabat musang jugak ke??

padahal musang=fox, serigala=wolf was obviously lain kot..

D: kalau fox dengan wolf sedare maksud nya megan fox sedara la jugak dengan wolverine kan??

tu yang citer van helsing tu pon ade bau bau bacang wolf jugak kan??

ok time ni dua-dua muka blurrr =.="

A: ye ke?? dah tu musang berjanggut tu??

D: hahahahahahaha *golek-golek atas katil* mane tau sebenar nya megan fox lahir kat gua musang... hahahahaha

A: entah-entah musang berjanggut tu atuk megan fox tak???? hahahahahaha

D: cube ko tanya sendiri megan fox nanti..

part ni aku tak tahan cuz diare buat suara macam megan fox duduk satu bilek je dengan aku kan...

later we spent almost minutes laughing sampai kejang perut.. nasib appendix kitorang tak pecah!

p/s: aku rase aku dah boring sangat sampai citer ni pun nak heboh... ohh pathetic nya!

wasting my time with you

tomorrow class starts at 2 pm.. we haven't decide our project title, neither done any research.. our brains are just wayyy too saturated! to ease down the stress, this is what my matric and current classmate @ housemate, diare done to me.. she's my bestest makeup artist! lepas tu buat hairstyle macam-macam.. serius takde kerja.. thanks to her, i have flawless skin, but SEKEJAP JE.. teeheehee

p/s: makeup dah basuh dah masa buat entry ni.. :(

nak Victoria's Wings! lelaki-lelaki sila lupakan niat nak klik sini, gi main jauh-jauh..

i want these!!! well the first one i totally jatuh cinta would be back in 2008..

THE HUGE FUSCHIA RIBBON WINGS! Heidi Klum pakai time tu.. it's soooo gorgeous!

2 years later, VS had more wings for their Fashion Show!!

source: marie claire
Actually she cried masa dapat her first wings, dia sangat terharu! She did two different wings for this show.. The first one, it was long and fluffy! but i like this one better.. Cute!

source:blogcatalog
this one is actually my fav!!! it was almost like Heidi Klum's ribbon wings, it's just much more with colours! i mosaic-ed her abs and thighs cuz she's just wearing you-know-what.. hahaha it's Victoria's Secret Fashion Show la braderrrr, HELLLOOOO!!!

kalau kau pakai kat dinner ni kan kawan, memang mau terbeliak la dekan aku tengok.. well, aku nak wings dia je.. berangan nak pakai kalau ada costume party.. alahai, aku jahit sendiri la jawabnya!

p/s: for guys yang gi tengok benda ni.. dont tell me i didnt warn yaa........ terang-terang kat title atas tu kot!

courtesy : Victoria's Secret

atas permintaan *tak-berapa* ramai... extend

WARNING : INI CAM-WHORING... EH BUKAN! INI PAGE PERASAN SENDIRI.. KALAU ANDA ALLERGIC DENGAN PEREMPUAN GEDIK SILA JANGAN TEKAN.. TERIMA KASIH!

in between test shoots

*please DO NOT notice ke-demok-an pipi saya*

mek lilin juga jadi bidan terjun bersama-sama

flash buat saya gemuk!

inilah tutor saya yang comel tu!! heeeeeee

credits to cheq mang @ najmi saad

*bajet ninja*

memoirs of a geisha??? ohh puh-leezzz!!!

it's me not d*ana rikas*ri okayy??? hahaha mungkin ada bau-bau bacang tapi bukan orang yang sama *konon*

p/s: only edit backlight and tambah watermark.. malas nak edit buang jerawat.. time ni makeup pun tak sempat atas permintaan photographers yang nak cepat and kejar sewa kimono 20 minit.. dah tak lawa sedar diri sikit la kan??? hehehe

p/ss: photog no3 suruh letak gamba lagi.. sambil promo yea.. terima kasih kepada lecturer photography saya, wak, piang, aming dan cheq mang yang ambil gambar si perasan ni.. siapa-siapa yang perlukan photographers untuk nak kahwin ke tunang ke, grad ke, events ke.. adik lelaki anda sunat sekali pun.. boleh la roger-roger ye!

itchy me

assalamualaikum and good evening ladies and gentlemen..

*ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww bajet pembace berita

tadi i went to a government hospital on the purpose of nak teman mama.. she had infection thingy la la la soo mama suro gi buat checkup jugak.. 'cause for the past one month i had EXTREME BAD RASHES.. ok i had eczema tapi dia macam get worse selepas mandi di satu air terjun kat janda baik.. itchy satu badan..

PLEASE JANGAN KATA AKU KENA SAMPUK BUNIAN SAMPAI AKU JADI GATAL-GATAL MACAM TU OK...

takut la infection ke.. terkena bacteria perosak ke.. klu transmission of virus nakal ke...

so dengan tak pasal-pasal selama beberapa hari ini aku jadi SANGAT PARANOID!

eeeee call me ade perasaan Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.. oh my! tapi bila aku berdoa banyak-banyak supaya tenang kan hati and jauh kan dari penyakit bawaan semua virus-virus dan bakteria sengal itu! InsyaAllah tarappapa.....

so bagi menguatkan lagi keyakinan terhadap body ku, yes.. i went for a checkup dengan doctor *sumpah paranoid punye pompuan*

after long explanation of la la la... the doctor said..

*ayat dia lebih kurang sama dengan bawah.. jangan la expect same ye.. saya bukan voice-recorder*

"jangan risau, you need to know what your illnesses are about.. since you have this and that and dot dot dot.. it's atopic.. bukan macam kudis yang jangkit-jangkit tuu.. but you have your ubat continuously.. eczema memang kena DEPENDENT DEKAT STEROIDS SEPANJANG HIDUP.. KALAU TAK MAKAN, YOU CAN HAVE INJECTION BUT YOURS TAK TERUK.."

aku tak terkejut sangat part inject tu... tak heran sangat la cause kecik-kecik selalu demam and yes, JAB... ouch!

tapi bab LIFETIME STEROID??? Goshhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

tolong please help me!!!

ohh someone please stop the itchiness!! Ya Allah!! please!!!

gambar: sumber google ; buzzle.com

tak payah la bace ni.... aku merapu je....

saya baru je balik dari photography assignment trip..

tajuk :

1) architecture

2)flora dan fauna

so we went to bukit tinggi and janda baik for some menembak session.. nak kena hantar print then tepek-tepek dekat photo album and hantar.. kira-kira thats our final paper la...

and yeah one of the thing that i learned for the trip

BEING A PHOTOSHOOT MODEL IS HARD!!!!!

so kalau orang rase setakat ambil gambar, pose gedik sana gedik sini itu senang.. Tak! bagi saya ianya SANGAT SUSAH.... means jadi gedik, ayu atau demure and then kena tahan pose selama few moments dengan mata kena tahan flash bling-bling tu lagi then lenguh-lenguh pipi pasal nak tahan sangat muka bajet cunn tuu pon susah taw tak!!! lagi-lagi aku yang tak mendengar arahan.. ahaaa jangan cakap laa kan..

gambar-gambaran akan ku upload later... tak ambil lagi dari tuan punya kamera...

(hint: kick ass kimono)

p/s: ini experimentation je ek... rasanya lepas ni takde dah buat kije-kije macam ni.. tak ada bakat jadi model.... SOBSOBSOB T_T

between strength in an empty space

i'm not much in the mood of talking, or even typing to my blog lately.. sorry to all my blog readers.. hope i'll get back on my mood soon enough... thanks for your support.. appreciate it much :D

gentle reminder to myself, and maybe you too

gentle reminder to myself...

"kau bukan nya perfect sangat nak comment orang.. before nak criticize orang lain cuba cermin dulu diri kau, ada tak kekurangan tu.."

ni gentle reminder to myself.. kalau anda rasa anda juga macam saya.. leave a comment and sama-sama kita muhasabah diri.. atau anda perasan hebat sedikit, lepas baca ni boleh blah dari blog ini.. ok??? THANK YOU :D

p/s: lepas bace blog aion serious aku macam nak tampar mamat 'auww!' yang mengomen dia tu.. tapi since aku tak kenal dia.. bulan puasa lagi tu.. so aku taknak buat dosa.. syadap je la kan?

p/ss: ada baca beberapa blog.. banyak juga yang criticize je kerja diorang.. (cehh macam kau tak buat kan ainil?) this is a personal blog.. this is MY blog.. aku buat blog bukan nak dapat kan 'benefit', pasang nuffnang la pebende (jangan terasa my munchkins and darlings! tak tuju kat korang), index kat google and what-so-ever.. this is my thoughts.. what i feel.. kalau tak nak baca, rasa layout aku tak lawa cam layout korang ke, music box aku annoying ke, tak cukup itu dan ini ke, jangan la tekan ok!!! ngeee~~~ (ini tanda cik ainil geram) heeee!

ME : now and then

DULU

me (jovial + bubbly)

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not doing homework / playing around

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denda dengan cikgu

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still can score so-so

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happy :)

NOW

assignments

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extra-curricular activities

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after class programs

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late nights group/club meetings

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struggling to score

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panda eyes (not cute)

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fatigue!

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not happy

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grumpy!!

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dean list???

so is it a good thing or a bad thing?? which is which??

ainil si pembebel 'selfish'

i feel that im selfish sometimes.. ya Allah, kesiannya dekat orang lain..

like.... i talk alot..

nagging, blabbing, complaining, etc..

kadang-kadang kesian dekat orang yang mendengar.. walaupun most of the time si pendengar akan kata "i don't mind..", "best jugak dengar orang lain bercerita.." tapi seriously bila conversation dah habis, i was thinking, eh asyik aku je yang cakap kan??? betul la kan??

(kau memang banyak cakap and banyak complains, ainil!!)

so next time, your turn to cakap banyak-banyak taw? heee!!! ^-^