saya kata MAJOR stress

As you seeeeeeeeeeeee.. aku asyik cerita benda-benda stress.. YES, without any doubt, im in MAJOR stress!!! i mean MAJOR MAJOR STRESSS!!!!!!

only this time i wish i can chillax tepi pantai, snorkelling with the fishes and sea creatures ke or wutt.. or maybe a week in europe *eceh macam aku kaye je*


sekarang duk rumah pun kerja tak habis lagi.. ingat duk rumah boleh laa goyang kaki.. end up surat rayuan pulak kena type, and kena spread the words, dari pihak atasan yang tak berapa nak atas.. ke rakan SATU FAKULTI.. yey *straight face* :|

serabut tak serabut la kan lagi-lagi satu fakulti kena duk lua pulak dengan sem depan ade major project for transport.. tak kan nak balik bengkel tido dalam khemah tepi studio kan???

what ever la.. just hope for the best... insyaAllah....

Astronaut @ Fashion Muse??

tadi tu angan-angan.. sekarang ni impian pulak... haah ni sebenarnya padle yang tag aku.. orang dah tag, kene la buat kan.. walaupun lambat BANYAK.. haha yang penting aku buat, kan kan kan???

first impian aku yang tak mungkin tercapai

my childhood dream as an astronaut..

haha harapan la aku nak jadi kan.. baru lari setengah padang dah semput.. nak tempuh force of 9G?? mau kempis la paru-paru aku, memang 30 botol inhaler pun lom cukup aku rasa... well point kat sini nak cakap aku ni tak la fit mane.. childhood bronchitis and asthma REALLY kacau impian ni.. tapi takpe la kot.. aku selesa jadi designer.. hehe!

no #2
becoming a fashion muse for foreign designer or damn-kaya-gila socialite in the US..

like, why USA??
well, kat sane the fashion influences are very strong, the whole scene was full extravagant and yes.. they have very deep deep pockets to be practically there.. *unless ko dihantar study sana by gomen laa* senang kata i wish im rich gilerr la.. pegi event naek private jets and duduk front seat kat every fashion shows!! well actually milan, paris, hong kong pun sama je but USA have every strongest reason untuk menjadi tumpuan fesyen sedunia.. to have either rich, famous, fashionable or successful to be there.. kira-kira kena strive jugak la to just, be there..



being a fashion muse to a designer?? TING TING!! bonus!!! take jen brill for example, bukan dia famous gilerrr macam si gegeh nyanyi lagu telefon tu kan but she is successful, pretty and fashionable!! perfect fashion muse type!! the whole main point is i wanted to sit in the front row of new york fashion show!! yes!!! tapi of course, baju aku pun beli bundle je, nak fashionable ke hape??????

nak tag sape-sape jela yang dah bace ni.. patot korang kena tag 5 ORANG!! tapi aku malas hehe.. terbuka sape-sape yang rela.. tiada unsur serta paksa disini.. :D

distressed punya angan

credits: GLAM malaysia

i always ALWAYS wanting to do a beauty shoot.. but ehemmm for personal keepings je la kan.. having classmates of photogs actually make it whole lot easier.. tp i kindda sedar that i need 10 inches of makeup because of my zit scars, and my non-existent upper lips and sparse-y eyebrows and lalala.. and hell yeah!! i suck at putting makeup on myself... shizzzyyyy... bluarghhh..


so instead of ME being taken pictures, I, AINIL would like to see people wearing the clothes i like!! few times a stylist and yada yada.. the rest, history.. and wnat to style more and MORE people.. soo i really want a picture taken like above! distressed, androgynous-y, military kinda look with boots and studs and extremely noised pictures with sepia filtered images.. it somewhat represent me and what goes on my mind for the past few months.. EXTREMELY DISTRESSED.. soo who is with me???

BUSY macam LAME EXCUSE

i know busy is like a lameSSTTT excuse.. tapi memang ye pun.. take it or leave la kan.. but somehow i hate this semester.. i got the biggest feeling that next year macam tak naik je stage anugerah dekan.. dan ini SERIOUS

ANIMATION AND MULTIMEDIA DESIGN - CRASHED FILES
CATIA - PLAINLY SUCKKKKKKK
IDE ASSESSMENT - THE WORSTTTTTTTTTTTTTT NIGHTMARE
MANUFACTURING PROCESSING - alhamdulillah aku rase ni je yang survived!!!

animation tu.. tinggal nak render dah kot.. material, environment, camera, lighting and what so ever dah setel dah.. TAPI BLE NAK RENDER... BAMMMMM!! CRASH!! dan kul 5 pagi tu la aku merempit sorang-sorang pergi studio bawak laptop.. 5 PAGI BEBBBBBB... gilerr kauuuu.....

lecturer pulak dah bagi banyak dah masa for us.. agak begging to extend a day.. pasal if u use 'mental ray' "this thang is for material, maca nampak lagi real gitu la..." i took longer time to render than usual.. oh yes we use 3DSTUDIO MAX LIKE SHIT-JE-KALAU-HANG-THEN-KENA-RESTART-TADE-AUTOSAVE-LALU-HILANG-SEMUA-TETTTTTT.. bayangkan la perasaan itu..

CATIA tak yah cakap la.. dengan ilmu tak berapa nak cukup didada nak buat 3d model gempak-gempak... aku hentam jela.. malas dah nak pikir weyh...

ASSESSMENT! *ummm kalau cik baca, jangan mara-mara la pulak saya ye hehe* memang i was kindda unprepared.. i dont know what to expect actually.. dari benda terpenting like ergonomics and manufacturing processing of your product sampaiiiiiiiiiiiiii benda remeh temeh like the colour of your baju and stickers yg ko tepek dengan niat konon nye menambah keayuan sejati si model.... HAHHHHHHHHHHHHH... very tiring.. benda semua tu nak kena pikir ye sebelum design.. bukan main conteng lepas campak atas meja engineer... tidakk... tidakk... sangat pening kot.. i should fit in to the situation starting dari sekarang...

whatever... terlalu penat nak pikir sekarang ni.. marathon tak tido nyenyak 3 minggu makes my mind when frozen... dah i need rest kejap... tak tahan...

itu menatam..

hari ni aku bgun lewat bohh.. 2ptg!! ngaaaa...gilerrrrrrrrrrrrr tul anak dara ni.. then pas mandi yadaaa2 dgn tak makan pada kul 3, straight aku gi bengkel.. bertukang sampai kul 11.. penat weyhhh penat... berhenti pada kul 9 utk tapau roti sadin 2 keping.. makan maggi ayam cendawan aum aum ngan roti sadin kul 1.. dan paling best sekali, satu ream a3 and pokok kari dengan lada tomato yang aku beli semalam telah di 'shi-shi' oleh sekor pendatang asing berbulu dan berkaki empat.. 7KALI BROOOO AKU MOP LANTAI!!! bau dia... puhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... harum.. wekk aku tak lalu nak cakap, tekak da loya dah la tak nak cakap..

P/S: bella, kalau ko baca ni kan... sabar banyak-banyak taw.. Tuhan lebih sayang dia.. kita doa dia masuk syurga ok!

merajuk la hati...

rase macam berkurun je aku tak online kan?? sangat... boleh jugak la aku katakan aku merajuk... it's been the busiest semester of all four.. memang kecur je air liur bila fikir kerja makin bertimbun.. ohh yes, that's the reason aku merajuk actually.. well honestly, my laptop was 'away' for more than 5 weeks.. gila la towkay kedai tu.. duit aku rm700 melayang camtu je kot.. ok no regrets la kan..


but paling sakit bila 3 out of 4 subjects i took this sem were based on computer.. advanced CAD, multimedia and animation and industrial design I (nak taip-menaip report research and nak buat banner for panel layout and design report and technical drawing tu derr).. i didnt get to stay in my room at all.. sama ada dekat lab, studio or keluar research or cari barang nak buat model and mockup.. balik je, penat and tido.. and paham-paham je la bila semua orang nak pakai laptop buat assignments, aku yang tak ada laptop memang tertangguh2 la.. nak FB kat lab kampus?? tiap kali aku klik tu la aku kena letak 's' after http.. *security* klik kat gamba je kena block.. tak ke menyakitkan hati kalau nak online macam tu kan?? even a fashion blogger/designer had ask me to join his blog promo.. hati memang nak buat but aku dah tade laptop.. IF happens aku pinjam pun la kan.. takkan aku nak bantai laptop orang lama-lama... just for the sake buat keje.. like takat mana yang keluar dekat top news je..


dear FRIEND, i really hope your reading this.. seboleh-bolehnya aku tak mention tapi it seems you dont understand..


it is usual for me.. not to be busy.. online 24/7.. but for at least this time you could understand.. honestly, aku rasa dah banyak kali dah aku tolong kau.. kau pun tolong aku.. but for AT LEAST JUST ONCE to let me focus on 5 and 4-credit hours subjects.. memang dah niat nak klik the button, thought of helping you, but when you mentioned the 'WORD' sumpah aku terasa gilerr.. it breaks my heart into pieces.. you know aku seorang yang sensitif kan??? plus, bertambah-tambah pedih bila kau tak cakap sorry.. maybe sorry seems to be the hardest word eh?? yes, aku pun ada hati dan perasaan, and also ego to combine with but kalau aku je nak jaga hati kau, have you ever thought of jaga hati aku??



P/S: the night you ask my opinion on your photoshoot concept.. aku gadaikan quiz on the next day just to help you.. so i guess my support just goes down the drain.. :((

a blog relationship

i'll be off and on my blog.. since i was freakishly busy plus with no laptop, it's just worse! hmm NVM.. however, i wont make my blog private.. read as you wish.. thanks!